Life: Pencarian (A Poem For You&Me)

Nostalgia keramat bersamamu
Bagaikan voltan elektrik yang mengalir di sitoplasmaku
Aku lemas dipukul sebatian resah
Aku karam di lautan asid hidroklorik

24 jam bakteria sepi menghantuiku
25 jam gelisah mencakar membran sel
26 jam yang ku lalui tanpamu
Bagaikan 365 hari di planet Pluto

Puas aku mencarimu
Di banjaran Himalaya
Di kutub utara
Di Universiti Malaya
Di Pusat Dagangan Dunia Putra
Namun sejuta kehampaan yang kutemui

Aku rela hilang 7 gunung emas
Aku rela hilang 8 gudang intan
Aku rela hilang surat beranak
Aku rela hilang kad pengenalan
Tapi aku tidak rela kehilanganmu

Apakah cakerawala ini
Tiada lagi unsur oksigen
Tiada lagi proses fotosintesis
Oh sesak nafasku
Pabila ku renung potretmu,
...

Life: Status - In a Relationship

Cinta bagiku adalah sebuah alam. Sama seperti alam kanak-kanak, alam remaja, alam persekolahan, alam pekerjaan, alam perkahwinan mahupun alam berumahtangga. Alam percintaanlah namanya. Alam juga kata akar "mengalami" dan "pengalaman". Cinta itu sesuatu yang dialami, sama seperti perasaan, pemikiran dan pengalaman. Cinta itu ada rasanya tersendiri, mungkin manis, mungkin pahit, mungkin tawar. Cinta itu diamati dari tingkahlaku dan pancaindera, samaada sentuhan, pandangan dan kata-kata.

Justeru adakah yang ku alami ini cinta? Biarlah ianya suatu yang benar, nyata dan wujud. Tidak seperti pengalaman lalu. Aku terlalu mudah jatuh cinta dengan orang yang salah dan pada masa yang salah. Mereka menjanjikan cinta tetapi memungkirinya dan gagal mempertahankannya, berhenti di tengah jalan. Mereka hanya sekadar ingin memilikiku dan itu sahaja tanpa mengenali, mengerti dan memahami aku.

Cinta sesuatu yang kekal abadi, tidak pernah luntur atau hilang. Sentiasa mekar berkembang dan semakin hari semakin sayang dan rindu. Cinta memerlukan tindakbalas dan rangsangan. Cinta adalah kehidupan dalam erti kata sains, kimia, biologi, fizik, matematik, bahasa. Cinta itu subjektif juga objektif. Cinta itu segalanya, universal.

Apabila aku katakan cinta, maka benarlah aku mencintaimu. Dan aku mahu cinta itu membenih lalu tumbuh subur. Aku tahu mustahil cinta tanpa cubaan, dugaan dan halangan. Kalau cinta itu benar, semuanya diredahi dan ditempuhi. Aku seorang yang percaya pada cinta.

Aku cinta padamu. Zzzzz....

Play: Games Make Me High

I'm more into PC games (because they are varied, complex, evolving) than PS2 games. I'm currently saving up money to buy handheld gaming devices so that I can gaming 24/7, Nintendo DS for good ol' skool RPG games especially Final Fantasy and Pokemon series and also PSP for 3d games especially racing (Burnout Legends), fighting (Tekken/Mortal Kombat/King of Fighter/Street Fighter, if there any) and sport (SSX On Tour).

If I remembered it correctly, the first PC game I played is the first 2D Prince of Persia game while the first cartridge game I played is Mario (can't remember which one). And handheld, none other than Tetris. The first game I bought is The Sims at The Mines. I was attracted at it's tagline "Virtual People Simulation". I was then into this gaming craze rollercoaster ever since.

My favourite PC games according to their respective genre are: STRATEGY (RTS,Turn-based) Rise of Nations, Impossible Creature, Warcraft III, Galactic Civilizations, Heroes of Might and Magic III, Vantage Master, Tradewinds, Drug Lord, Yu-Gi-Oh, The Sims, SimCity 4, Rollercoaster Tycoon, Darwinia, Uplink. SHOOTER (FPS, Horror, Action) Unreal Tournament 2004, Deus Ex, Grand Theft Auto:Vice City, Resident Evil. RPG- Morrowind, Fate, Diablo.
My favourite PS2 games: RPG-Final Fantasy X, Sport-SSX 3, Racing-Midnight Club 3, Fighting-Soul Calibur 3, Music-Guitar Hero, Action-Okami, Katamari Damacy.

Games that I like to play continously, over and over again until the end of time other than Reflexive Arcade games (hyperbole!): Rise of Nations (the compact Civilizations game, with many things to attend to especially founding new cities, controlling resources, expanding border and also advancing technologies, it's so addictive, the strategy is to prioritize), The Sims (with all the expansion packs, Livin' Large, House Party, Vacation, Unleashed, Superstar, Makin' Magic-perfect digital world for my virtual pet-the Simlish-speaking people!), SimCity 4 (building and maintaining a city is as hard as it sounds), Galactic Civilizations (a race to grab as many planets as you can in the beginning while researching techologies, then build the strongest space armada or control the economy and technology of the entire galaxy), Heroes of Might&Magic III (six factions to choose from, the colourful and beautiful graphic, 3D it is not but the scenes and monster creations are so captivating), Morrowind (explore the world full with adventure and has its own history and lots of side quest), Unreal Tournament 2004 (action-packed blockbuster shooting galore full-blown sport entertainment with many modes to choose), Rollercoaster Tycoon (building my dream theme park is not a fantasy anymore, the best part is to listen to all your park visitors voicing their opinion about your park), GTA (want to cruise around but got no car, or don't know how to drive? this game is perfectly the answer to your prayer).